Thursday, October 29, 2009

happy birthday internet (off topic)

today is the 40th birthday of the internet (sorry Al Gore it wasn't you!)

actually 1 day before my mom's birthday - so happy birthday, mom, too!

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

if on a winter's night... (sting)

I picked up Sting's newest release today, "If On a Winter's Night..."

A nice project. Christmas? I'd consider it more of a classical pop CD than anything else, but it was very relaxing to listen to while working this morning. Rather funny listening to Sting attempt to sing in a "classical" style on some of the tracks.

A soothing musical backdrop for a cold, rainy day like today.

disordered desires

(bold is mine - DT)
If we are honest, we all know something about disordered desires. Most of us know the possibility of forming a false attachment to someone, looking to them to meet needs that can never be met by any human. Or if we have never felt the fleeting gratification of such an idolatrous attachment, perhaps we... know the desire for it. Most of us also realize that we can form the same sort of false attachment to possessions, money being perhaps the easiest object for this. Many of us also know disordered desire that comes from a false attachment to reputation and image.

One of the ways I have found helpful to distinguish between ordered and disordered desires is the particular, though some times subtle, effect each has on me. Ordered —or purified— desires expand me and connect me to others and the world in life-enhancing ways. Disordered desires suck me into myself and rather than adding vitality to life, leach it away. This is because ordered desires spring from willingness and surrender, while disordered ones are my willful attempt to arrange for my own happiness and fulfillment.

When I desire nothing more than God alone, I experience a deep sense of well-being and connectedness. Paradoxically, this is a longing that leaves me feeling not empty but complete. It is a longing that draws me not only toward God but also toward others. It is a longing that leaves me feeling open and alive.

In contrast, when my lust for respect rears its ugly head, I become aware of a feeling of deficit. There is something that I think I need in order to feel complete, and this something is outside of me, beyond me. Thinking I can produce it by my own efforts rather than receive it as a gift, I willfully set out to get it by sacrificing reality on the altar of appearances and hoping that others will notice the appearance. But because this involves treating people as objects — potential sources of the soothing balm of admiration to which I am addicted - I feel cut off from those whose esteem I seek. And because the choice of appearance over reality always involves turning my back on God, I feel equally cut off from life and vitality.

But why talk about this as a disordered desire? Why not simply call it sin?

While it is sinful — as is anything that springs from the kingdom of self, any idolatrous attempt to live independently of surrender to God — I find it helpful to think of it as a disordered desire because this language reminds me that at its core it is something good. At the core of my desire to be viewed with respect is a God-given desire for love. The love that I really desire and most deeply need is not however, dependent on my performance. The love I most deeply long for is the only love that can truly set me free — the perfect and absolutely unconditional love of God.
- David G. Benner, Desiring God's Will, p.85-86

Friday, October 23, 2009

farm music machine?

Unfortunately this is another urban legend, but it is a pretty cool video, and would be way cool if you really could make something like this out of farm equipment.

and to prove it's animation...

Friday, October 16, 2009

not guilty

Yes, it's been a few weeks since my last post, and the Friday videos too... has anyone missed them? Well, it's been a busy few weeks, attending the Brooklyn Tabernacle Music Conference and family visiting the week before that. But here I am, and here's this week's Friday video. Great song!